help

i need to. get out. run. far. fast. leave. start new, start clean. create my blank slate. turn over a new leaf. do well in school. prove i'm worth something. find people who make me smile all the time. spend more time with the ones i know. eat less. eat right. excersize. find happiness this winter. not cry so much. have fun. take no excuses. do things for myself. stand up for what i believe in. stand up for myself. believe in myself. write more papers. write more poetry. read more books. find people who want to do the same things as me. bake cookies. share them. share me. find people who want to share themselves with me. find people who believe in peace, no matter how hopeless. drink more bubble tea. smile more. laugh uncontrollably. get an A in chemistry because i can. hug people more often. let people know i love them. tell my dad i love him more. try harder. let go of my mom, she's not going to change. find a family, keep them. get a job. save money. move out. buy clothes. feel beautiful, because i am. think clearly. love myself.

we belong

in gutters and glittering lobies

to a streetlamp flickering out

to absolutely nothing

hate the feeling of self resentment, how counterproductive. disapprove of people with no control, but i'm right there with you. here comes winter, here comes lonely, surrounded by people.

you're feeling close but nothing's there.

FML

i get to kiss you baby just because i can

seeing you smile is like laying down in the middle of nowhere and seeing the stars shine down on the whole world. seeing you smile is like going out side and so sure you have frostbite and coming inside and the tingly feeling and drinking hot cocoa and watch the snow swirl. see you smile is like the first week of summer when you don't have to commit to anything and you are just happy to be free. seeing you smile is like getting an A in your hardest class. seeing you smile is easy. seeing you smile is hope that fairytales do exist. seeing you smile is the favourite part of any day.

nerves

tomorrow i get to tell you the last thing you wanna hear.

don't let me go

lying to myself has never got me anywhere worth going, so i'm confused as to why i still do.


i miss you. i love you and i don't ever want anyone else.

joy

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3. health: zerba

4. spanish 5-6: douglass

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6. chem: mayer

7. english: gonzales