help

i need to. get out. run. far. fast. leave. start new, start clean. create my blank slate. turn over a new leaf. do well in school. prove i'm worth something. find people who make me smile all the time. spend more time with the ones i know. eat less. eat right. excersize. find happiness this winter. not cry so much. have fun. take no excuses. do things for myself. stand up for what i believe in. stand up for myself. believe in myself. write more papers. write more poetry. read more books. find people who want to do the same things as me. bake cookies. share them. share me. find people who want to share themselves with me. find people who believe in peace, no matter how hopeless. drink more bubble tea. smile more. laugh uncontrollably. get an A in chemistry because i can. hug people more often. let people know i love them. tell my dad i love him more. try harder. let go of my mom, she's not going to change. find a family, keep them. get a job. save money. move out. buy clothes. feel beautiful, because i am. think clearly. love myself.